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Sorry, but I'm shutting down +Wishful Thinking+.

You're free to use the story, you wrote it. Just change Riley's name to something else.

For a while now I've been busy and such, and whenever I did try to draw anything, even if to just improve my skill, I felt overshadowed and as if I had to draw WT related pictures.
This would be good, if this feeling of "I have to draw this" was instead "I want to draw this."

Originally, this was just going to be a fun little webcomic where I drew what I wanted and bounced suggestions off of some friends, etc. Soon after about 4 or 5 pages, someone wanted to aid in scripting, so aid is what I got until the aid slowly stopped due to life issues.
However, along with the aid, was also advertising about the comic on some site before it was ready to be adversised.

Due to this situation of being without a scriptor and having more people than it should be, coming to the site, I began to feel as if the webcomic were a chore. However, I set that idea aside and tried to begin anew. I sorta felt as if I still wanted to do the comic, but that wick soon burned out.

In my confusion, I found myself re-starting the comic once more. I felt no desire for it anymore, but moreso as if it were a duty to the fans to try at it again, leave the scripting in hands of others and go from there.

However, if I had any ability to say 'No more' back at that time, I'd have given up at a better time. If I had any insight, I'd have seen this coming~ It was a great outline, a good story, its true. But since I decided to have no part in the story making, save for pointing out things here and there, I realized its not the story I want it to be. Of course, there's no way it could be. If it were to be the story I wanted it to be, then I'd have worked on it myself.

Its the whole of the subject matter, in a way, which also contributes to it all... I thought I wanted to draw the whole magic "He's become a she, omg!" kind of shit, but I soon found that to feel too fake. And like an idiot, I tried to say "Hey, lets make Riley stubborn at first, but turn girly fast! lololol" <-- (inserted 'lololol' to show stupidity of the statement). In doing that, what do we get? A page or two of Gender Bender, then 'lo and behold!! It's become a regular romance story between a guy and a girl. But, set that aside again. The whole He turned she thing felt too fake.

It angered me that I would even think up such a plot.

If I were to try at WT again, I'd probably make it into a crossdressing manga/webcomic. However, having no real experience in that wing, I'd probably have to do lots of research and such. Not to mention, I've come across some crossdressing manga which make no sense (ie. The main character is a guy who crossdresses as a girl and goes to school and shit, and has sleepovers with his group of friends which are girls, while wearing lingere and they're fine with that? I mean... Really?? Sounds like a shoujo manga to me. Its like they took a female character and pointed at her and said "Right, you? Um... You're now a guy, yeah... that's how it is." ..... And wouldn't they be embarassed?! o.o; I mean, aaah, I don't see how he could hide what hangs between his legs well while wearing something like lingere~ Correct me if I'm wrong, but yeah... boourns booooouuurrrnssss.)

Back to reality~

I was a little miffed by the responses I got to the last News Post~
Thinking back on it, if I were to be true to the last sentence of my concern in the original post, then I should've cried a river by now.

In the end, I'm sorry about wasting your time and efforts with such a comic as this, but if you look on the bright side~ Now you've got a solid story on your hands. Don't worry, I won't use it~ Its yours, not mine.

Sorry...
Hate me, if you will.
I cannot fulfill your desires.

This is goodbye.

posted by Rairi @ 12 May 2009 10:53 am  -  1 comments

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